4 weeks. 4 weekends. That’s all I have left in this adventure in Korea. WOW. Where has the time gone!?
Cait and I were hanging out in my apartment today talking about what happens next. What happens in 4 weeks? Even though we’re traveling for a couple weeks together, it still doesn’t seem real that we’ll be saying “farewell” in the Bangkok airport with a “see you ________” still very much open ended. Even saying “see you later” to Madz and Laura will be hard enough — and Laura and I both live in the K-W, and Madz is just a short trip to cottage country away; it just doesn’t seem real that we all won’t be living in Busan, meeting for weekly girls dinners and shopping and going out on the weekends. I have truly made amazing friends here and I have high hopes of them lasting … but, not without effort of taking and making the time to meet up and visit each other — CAITLIN – you have to be sooooo difficult being all American. Even Kyle lives pretty far away … you didn’t plan this Canadian boyfriend thing very well!
How quickly the time has gone by. I have slowly started cleaning up my apartment and sending things home, but the more I pack up, the more memories I stumble upon from over the course of the last year. The idea of leaving seems so surreal, I think I am almost in denial of it’s actuality. Today I had a moment of “I want to stay” which was immediately followed up with the feeling “I want to go and travel”. HAHA
So what will the next 4 weeks hold? Making my travel plans and booking plane tickets. Packing up and moving out of my apartment. Picking up any last minute things that are cheaper to buy in Korea than anywhere else. Farewell dinners. And most likely, tears, tears and more tears.
At this point I have absolutely no regrets with my decision to come to Korea, and I have little regret about my decision to leave after the one year mark. I know I am leaving a changed person with a different outlook on life, love and responsibility. I feel like I’ve grown and learned a lot about ME over the course of the last 11 months, which was my ultimate goal for coming here. I feel like coming here has brought me much closer to my true friends and family at home … and has made the bonds stronger with the people I love at home. It’s funny, when you eliminate the aspect of physical contact from the equation, how it forces open and honest communication – and I truly am happy for the openness that as developed between me and my family since I came here. We are forced to put into words what we think and feel – and I feel closer to every single person in my family because of this, and almost have a new found respect for each of them as well. Love you guys. xoxo
There are still many aspects of myself I’m getting to know and questions still unanswered — like, what comes next once I’m done traveling? What are my long term goals? blah blah blah … — I know I’m ready to leave Korea, but I’m not so sure I’m ready to come home just yet. I miss my friends and family a ton — but I still need this time to see the world and figure myself out. I need to find the passion within me that I want to make a career out of. Hopefully something stumbles into my lap over the course of the next 6 months! 🙂
Anyway, I will end this post … sorry for the randomness that this was. I will post again before the end of the month for sure. Believe it or not – I’m trying to get some people together to go scuba diving with the sharks at the Busan Aquarium — who would have guessed I would be organizing something like that!? HAHAHA … we’ll see if I’m brave enough to go through with it. I want to get over my fear of fish once and for all!!
Love and miss you all. xoxoxo